KZN Lightweaver Channeling – April 09.

 Ascended Master Kuthumi  

  Transmitted through Chanel Lingenfelder

 Durban – South Africa 18 April 2009

 Back To Basics 

This channel includes some personal information thus due to the content the names are not disclosed, yet many might find solace in the answers as many light workers share the same personal trauma.

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Should you wish to experience this or any of the other initiations, simply quieten your mind; find a comfortable place where you will be undisturbed, connect with the Energy of Spirit and set the intent for your rewire as you please. This will automatically be facilitated by your higher self for your greater good.

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I am Kuthumi, and I come forward upon the rays of love and wisdom to greet thee at this time and to bring unto thee the blessings of surrender, integrity, inner truth, and the blessing beloved ones of keeping yourself constantly within the heart space that connects your heart to the heart of mother earth. 

Greetings beloved ones,

Greetings Lord Kuthumi,

It is with great joy and with great pleasure within our hearts that we gather with you upon this day as we hold each of you here firmly within the Heart of Christ, and securely upon the Hands of God.

Beloved ones of the earth, the stars, the moon and the Sun, you have faced tremendous challenges within the self over many lifetimes, some consciously and some unconsciously. Throughout all of the lives that you have lived there was one general repeated key that carried you throughout all of your vibrations into an aspired state of being and what I mean by this is that throughout all of your lifetimes no matter how trivial it may have seemed to some at times from your own perspective, you have always had your eyes fixed on one united goal and that is to one day walk with yourselves as one, not only be one with your land and people, but at one most definitely with the inner part of the self which always very gently guide the ways of the self should you listen to the whisper of the winds, should you but take one moment of time stepping back from the controlling aspects of the self by gently allowing the self simply to be. We do understand that for many of you this is almost an impossibility not so, said without judgment.

Deep rooted within the personality types touching the soul or life cord there is stored a vibration that activates a specific message at intervals which infiltrate the human mind released from the memory of your soul aspect, a message which may either bring fear or support confusion at times which unbeknown to you create a need for you not to want to let go and surrender, this reaction stems from your birth.

Your birth is often the most traumatic soul experience at earth arrival. The birth of you stepping from the world of spirit into the world of matter through is exhausting to say the least and this may cause memory scars within the aspects of the personality types, and it is usually the archetypes that support insecurity that deals with this. Thus recorded within these archetypes you may find fragments of messages which continuously send impulses from the brain to the nervous system about being in control, the silent need for control. For this reason if you find that you are the kind of person that don’t easily let go of your reigns allowing someone else take the lead, or if you find that you always have to make sure that your wall-pictures are inline (who cares if they’re not), or if you find that that you are not able to leave the used toothpaste without squeezing it into perfection, then perhaps you might want to look back and do some releasing, do this by allowing your birth trauma to be healed. Lots of children, who experience trauma during birth, be that physical trauma due to biological conditions or mental trauma due to psychological exposure, often due to the mother’s mental conditioning during pregnancy or the time of labor and giving birth). Perhaps her anger towards the child that doesn’t want to come into the word, her anger towards her husband that ‘made her pregnant’ (laughter) she had nothing to do with this of course naturally (laughter).

Beloved ones, one need to take a good look, at all of the aspects of the self, for very often you may find that throughout your lifetime you may have worked very hard at the issues within these aspects but inevitably there may be one or two, or three hundred that you overlooked (laughter)

The question is why? Yes many avoid the aspects of the self that brings anger and frustration or a sparked reaction. The answer you all know which is?

A; To release?

MK: Yes, to evolve – thus to release all of the attachments to the issues that keep you back so that you can evolve as a being and with that step out of the limitations of your lower thought forms excelling the self into something that you have been inspired to become lifetime after lifetime. Each time that you leave at the end of that lifetime returning to the cosmic sea of spirit consciousness you say ‘next time I shall remember why I came, why I set before myself these tasks’ and although most times thus far you failed in many ways, this time around because of the immense awakening and stirring within your consciousness you very much came to awaken these aspects of the self as a beloved sister or brother to acknowledge yourself for exactly who you are, to carry no shame, yet many due to the filters of fear are still unable to let go, as mentioned which often may have been caused by the memory of birth trauma, be that physical or emotional.

Emotional trauma, I mentioned one small aspect of, can be indirectly caused by the emotional state of the body plasma which includes the amniotic fluid and your physical link through the umbilical cord feeding off the mother, and physically you felt her vibrations recoding these at a mental level as the subconscious simply records and stores. Trauma at birth can cause more destruction than most are aware of therefore it is extremely important to understand that for many the issues that you are facing doesn’t necessarily come from the recollective past, but also from the unknown. Even those that proclaim to have had the most exhilarating childhood, do have some trauma recorded there within the many aspects, some dormant, some unknown, as these weren’t shared (childhood traumas/childbirth traumas). Many parents don’t share the history with their children, some not meaning to intentionally keep a secret as such, for what is a secret but that which is not shared. So many don’t intentionally tell their children (even when grown up) of the trauma experienced at birth (especially that which involves the mother) or other infant experiences.

Beloved ones, to look at the grander or greater aspect of the self in such a way that allow you to embrace yourself as a magnificent divine being, you have to now start to put certain things to bed; thus to shift your personality vibrations by looking at the self in a complete and differently light and here I mean for you to see the self in a validating and worthiness light. Now to see the self within this light requires of you to let go of judgment. First and foremost your judgment against yourself, and then towards others, and usually it hits closes to home thus for many judgment towards parents, and then there is the rest of the family and friends, from closest to distant, the colleagues, then ex-colleagues and ex friends, and then of course what is judgment without resentment? Not much for there has to be resentment for you to be able to judge not the other way around as many like to think are you with me?

A: Yes

MK: Any questions so far?

No

MK: So resentment then wouldn’t you say is what we should look at first. To resent something means being uncomfortable in it’s presence. Not being comfortable means you are not on par, or you feel inadequate. So you are feeling inadequate because you are not comfortable with it, hence your resentment renders you extremely insecure about the self for what it does is it actually shows the self that you are unable to come within a current situation for whatever number of reasons and therefore you have to resent thus reject the situation or being, all which plays out through the format called judgment.

You have a well used cliché which says ‘you haven’t walked in their shoes’ well let us remember in life that no matter the experience it is your own journey, meant for YOUR shoes, with you walking in them, not someone else. Therefore if you own your own life experience, then what do you want to do in another’s? So if you own your own life experience what do you benefit from walking in the experience of another? None but judging it, and let me say that even if you have so much as walked in a similar experience as theirs for a moment, the judgment is what delivers to you limitations as it clouds your outcome which naturally is supported by resentment and bringing this back to basics, all because you feel inadequate.

Beloved ones, it is really important for you to make a point of seeing the lighter and greater side in everyone. Even thought the average limited human prefers to see the negative in many, do try.

Kuthumi here shared some examples of our ‘frivolous judgment’ caused by envy.

Beloved ones through all of the teachings of light, all of the journeys explored you have now come to realize that this is the time where true inner work is needed and if you have no time, make time. It takes a mere minute a day for your to connect with inner consciousness and trust from one minute a day it will grow into more until eventually you will reward yourself within inner quality time be that 5, 10, 15, 20 minutes a day it matter not. When suggesting this we are not implying for you to create a shrine and fall down in front of it (laughter) but to merely make a point at some stage during your busy day to be quiet, anywhere. If you are able to create a meditation corner or sanctuary of sorts for the self then this will be the ultimate, but should you not be able then simply make an effort for a mere minute to connect to your inner stillness. The inner quietness which is the essence of the soul truly knows no judgment as it knocks on your consciousness doors asking you to return to love. The essence of life or the truth of living is to be still and know that you are (part of) God. To get yourself to that stage would require of you to be still therefore the suggestion for you to get back to basics at the break of your day preferably, get into the stillness of your beautiful mind. Create time within this stillness to create for yourself a beautiful space wandering away from restrictions thus move away from structural influence becoming more flexible.

Structure gives form to force thus manipulating energy to set into form for a given time depending on the value of the structure. Some of your sacred sites are very long standing structures that were created through the force of love, can you see some of your new high-rise structures last that long?

A: No

MK: What is then wrong with their structure?

A: There are no good foundations

MK: in some way physically, yet not other wise, for they hold no integrity towards the earth. Having integrity towards the earth is a commitment that you make at soul level. The ancient sites of sacred origin and meaning were all constructed with the workers in a semi or full transcended state, Tran work, and in this state of respect the agreement that was made between the workers and the earth in setting this structure was of the highest integrity, infact the integrity so fine you cant even slide in a hair into the grooves that separates these building blocks of integrity. This is what are very much happening to many of you at present, this group and many that are reading these words, are now busy converting yourself from flashy buildings to sacred sites. So you are now converting the integrity of the self thus instead of the self being structurally unsafe you rather become joyously flexible. Now is this not amazing? Beloved ones, structure need’nt be set in stone, and even if it is, it should have room for movement as the earth supports a constant ebb and flow, there is constant movement, a in and out breath, a constant energy exchange.

Because of the setout changes and constant flow of energy many have discovered that they are no longer happy, not that they ever fully were, so to speak. Not happy in this case scenario doesn’t mean depressed, but rather being unsatisfied with the quality of your being and the reason why is because of your inert knowing that you deserve more, better. I mentioned previously that from now until the month of September/October or so, many will come to face some of their greatest personality challenges - which are usually caused either by an insecure inner child and/or overactive lower ego (insecure outer child). These are the two main arenas that represent the plays playing out the dramas of your life, or shall we say ‘the days of your lives’ (laughter)

Beloved ones, what prevent you from claiming your magnificence but your worthiness, then so what prevents you from wishing your greatest enemy your best?

A; Unforgiveness

MK: Jealousy, for you don’t want them to have what you have not, or you imagine them to have what you have not, but yet you don’t know what they have (laughter) you think you know, but you don’t, you make assumptions of what you think they have, but you have no proof. The reason why you think you know what they have is because of the victim for this is the part of you that always believe everyone else has better than you not so? “They must have more money than me? They must have a better life than me? She has grander children than me? They have a fancier car than we do?” Much of this you don’t know, and with that the nosy part of you that always ‘wants to know’ moves into ‘control mode’ of making up your mind of that which transpires in another’s because of your own insecurity and need for victim mode, yet you truly have no ‘real’ idea, thus you slide deeper into feeling unworthy.  

The key here is to bring the mind into a complete loving state, thus you feel so good, great, yet humble that you can almost imagine that you are god. In this Godliness of the self, within the high-heart presence when you absorb all of the light particles that makes you feel so loving and god-like so much so that you can feel the Breath of God within, then this is the space that you use to reflect love from, unto all. Begin to train your mind to rather send out these Godliness Rays instead of judging them, instead of being jealous of what they have, instead of being victimized by what you feel you don’t have, instead of assuming because of your lack of worthiness, rather bless all with the God Rays that you bathe within, and without. You will recall many images being depicted of these Rays flowing from the Heart of Christ especially prominent within many of the Christian church representations, thus use this image and send out from your sacred heart thus the higher aspect which fills the unconditional part of your reality, reflecting these Rays of Light unto those you envy, those that bring fear and intimidation into your lives, those who control you, those whom you control.

The essence here is to love and to be.

Some personal exchange between a lady and Kuthumi on this (inaudible from her side)

For this reason sister it is very important to understand where you are coming from and as you say ‘fake it until you make it’ (laughter).

Beloved ones it is very important for you to claim yourself in your divine beingness and the only and best way to achieve this is, is to be your authentic self, which means you are actually taking on a certain label for the self which you and only you designed and set out instead of following the mass-produced ways such as another, thus instead you created your own, you designed yourself an amazing and unique personality, for you did so far.

The next step on your evolutionary journey is to live this fully, thus shatter and the shed the mould of having, needing and wanting to fit in. The only thing you would need to fit into is your clothing (screeches of laughter) and if not then make them bigger or smaller and with that love yourself through this, not resent the self because you’ve had that extra cake, or you have to move the notch of your belt one up (laughter) and even for those that have expanded in seize in deep slumber as with this channel (screeches of laughter) – I have gained quite some weight over the years “not wanting to realize it – Chanel”  Do not resent yourself for where you are suddenly at just because you dared to look in the mirror for the first time in a while, the secret is to love yourself through it, admittedly there is more to love (laughter).

Dear ones, it is important to bring little issues such as these to the fore to realize how deep your resentment is, and you will find that most of your resentment known or unknown is towards the self, therefore most of the judgment is in a roundabout way aimed at the self even if you for some peculiar reason find something that you lay against another I Kuthumi guarantee you that should we sit down and chat about it for a while you too will come to this deep realization, most of which is recorded at such an unconscious level it will blow your own hair back! (Laughter)

The key to expanding your consciousness is to love what is - Love from within all this is without, love from without all that creates within.

One of the most treacherous ways of bringing harm to the self, or damaging the self is wishing for another’s life thus wishing you were someone else. Wishing you were someone else in any way actually create a damaging force which destructs the mind for it believes it is greater than the heart which is the engine of the soul therefore great conflict arises. Now is this not scoffing sand into God’s eyes? Does this not say I cannot appreciate and Grace Your Creations Divine One? This also causes a breakdown of happy memories thus you prevent the release of endomorphins, the happy hormone that makes you feel good. Are you all who you want to be?

A: Yes

MK: But you want to be a millionaire not so (laughter)

When you are able to be in the discussed quiet God-Space and able to send to another your love without needing or expecting it’s return, even one that does not share your favor, then the next step for you is to become joy, joy and happiness, fun and laughter this means transcending your seriousness and the only way to seriously find out what life is about, is to have some fun for this is meant to be a Universal playground as you go about having fun whilst learning and experiencing. You are meant to be in joy, to live in happiness, for if you do this you will not only inspire the self, but all others. Beloved ones it is better to instead of judging and resenting keep your focus on inspiration for this can get you places, as it will support your transition from the limited to the freeway of life.

By being inspired, thus IN SPIRITED as you know, means that the lower aspects of the self which fuels doubt and limitation is out of the way thus the spirit can then come through without restriction thus the higher aspect, the master self or even aspects of the Monadic self can infiltrate your beingness thus ideas out of nowhere come into your head, meaning your usual guards are out of the way and the clearer all knowing spirit self can communicate clearly with the soul self by inspiring you, and in the same way when you inspire others it means that your spirit self awakens this magic in their soul self. Thus there are no limits, and as you say the sky is the limit and you can achieve anything, and in this space you are able to create just about ANYTHING and the easiest to bring this into fruition from this uncontaminated space is to share it with others, purely from your heart to theirs, no ego.

Beloved ones during the month of May you will be working very intently with the inner child, and may I add from the viewpoint of a very soft, gentle and feminine energy. During this time you shall once again have the opportunity to address many aspects, most, that you have as yet overlooked or were unable to face by choice. You shall learn to grow through these limitations discovering happiness, laughter and joy, to the extend of having fun discovering these hidden aspects so that you can expand these boarders that keeps you limited, thus that which keeps the lower ego aglow, the eternal questioning of the doubting thomas, the need to know of the insecure personality and so on and so forth thus eliminating the “vacuum effect” within the throat chakra which one experiences when this centre is overactive or being scrutinized (which is also to a large extend responsible for free flowing air) which often results in being unable to swallow, physically and psychologically.

Here one needs to address the control aspects within the throat to allow healing to occur, thus remove the need to control (or be controlled) and with that you are finally able to embrace the self in a finer and much gentler way.

Beloved ones, can any conflict within your lives be so powerful that you cannot give your hand to your neighbor, and being the one of greater knowledge don’t you think that perhaps you are to take the lead in this?

This kindness and gentleness is what you are being asked to live by, in honor and humbleness without expectation, for this ultimately leads to disappointment not so. Thus remove this expectancy by living each day as it is your last, why not? There are no guarantees that you will be here tomorrow? Live your dreams in heart space within your quiet moments this day. The paradox is in the cliché ‘why leave that which can be done today for tomorrow’ but if it is not life-threateningly-important then why kill yourself today to fit in all that which could easily be done tomorrow. The important thing is to expand your consciousness and with that the awareness of the mind by integrating the heart-consciousness, to expand your vibrations daily, to live your life according to YOU not another. This is why expectation writes the false aspect of the law of accordance – because you are expected to this or that according to ‘them’. You are in charge of your lives, your truth, and your time; therefore make sure to embrace each day as if it is your last. Live your lives, have fun and joy, be exited even for just a moment at a time (you can always be miserable later – laughter) not so? If you insist and believe me there are many people out there that are not happy unless they are completely unhappy (laughter). Some have to intervene in another’s way to fuel their own victim hood and for many of you, and the likes of you, you have now reached the lifetime you have looked forward to, to put this all behind you and with that stand tall and be free. You have now arrived at this time, and within this awakening grand lifetime you are able to integrate everything according to what YOU desire. The universal laws support a balanced cosmic reality, put in place to fulfill the wishes of the Creator. These laws supports a natural state of healing, growth and evolution yet to support each of you to awake into a state of love so great that to claim your authentic ness is inevitable for this is all that is expected of you, to be divinely uniquely yourself for if you cannot be yourself then what does this mean, anyone?

A: Can’t accept yourself

MK: Think more

A: Inaudible

MK: If you cannot be yourself does this not mean that then you are someone else?

Do you recall a mere 20 minutes ago I expressed the misfortune of wanting to be someone else so if you are not yourself then won’t you agree that you aught to be someone else?

Do you understand the deep underlying unconscious conflict that can arise by not being authentically who you are?

Anyone has a problem with this?

A: No

MK: Beloved ones, what we are aiming at, at the end of the day with all our visitations here within the realm of physicality is for all of you bright sparks to glow so brightly beautiful for you to feel proud of yourself. Not run around with pride wanting to control the world because of your own insecurity, but to be proud of yourself, thus to be a light worker, strong individualistic and beautiful. To say to another ‘I am beautiful like you, for we are as one’. This is to walk your walk and talk your talk. Be honest about the love you have for the self by showing others how you care for them, this means not being superfluously ‘in love’ with the self as then you would be stuck glued to a mirror all day not so (heaps of laughter), this is no good, but certainly to love the self unconditionally and to do so by removing bit by bit the obstacles that bites created by blame. The only reason why you entertain blame is because you do not take responsibility for the self thus you feel inadequate thus far easier to put the responsibility on another than to carry it yourself “I did not do this or that because he or she said so”

Beloved ones when looking at the key issues of judgment hence resentment, there is so much that fuels this energy, so much that is overlooked, and then so much that is so deeply ingrained within the personality, completely unaware. Now is the time to rise from the ashes, to be your authentic self, to be victorious, to claim your divine love and to do so in a gentle kind way. Being assertive is good, but being over assertiveness is controlling thus insecure.

Petty controlling habits are just the same as any. One of the ways of going into the core of these issues is to communicate directly with the solar plexus. Think of the habit or issue, place your hands (on top of each other) over the solar plexus and feel where the control dramas originated from.

Lord Kuthumi took everyone through a practical exercise doing this, working with judgment and resentment. 

Doing this you address your ego which is usually the hurt culprit which deters your growth. When did hurt cause you such pain for you to judge another on that which you never healed?

We now will ask if anyone wants to share with us their experiences on judgment or resentment or any similar issue that they need guidance with.

Q: My child nearly died last night, because her husband doesn’t understand her, he is psychic yet he doesn’t use his ability, he knows when things are going to happen yet he doesn’t do anything about it. last night my daughter suffered a culmination of many issues having a heart attack I resent him…(The lady continued sharing personal details on this for quite some time about her son-in-law treating her daughter unjustly – Lord Kuthumi shared some personal information with her)

MK: beloved sister firstly when he confronts you or you are faced with a experience like yesterday you are asked to call upon Lord Melchizedeck, then visualise a 6 pointed star in the colour violet surrounding this man, place him within the star of David, then visualize him being calmed down as you call upon Melchizedeck to bring peace and healing. There is a karmic issue here, between yourself, your daughter and him that during a past life faced a triangle of conflict that you now once again came to serve to release these powers. Certainly you must address him, and confront him with love, which is the difficult part for at these times the natural reaction in anger and with resentment is so strong that it takes a very wise and humble person (she is) to express and confront this with love, the key is to love, put your point forward assertively with love. You cannot kill fire with fire, thus ease his anger with love for this is the third lifetime that the three of you have been together within this same triangle of conflict. Remember the God within knows only love. Blessings be with you.

Q: I have a great resentment towards my sister. She took a boyfriend away from me when we were much younger, someone I loved very deeply.

MK: The resentment of love, the reason why you feel so angry towards her at a very deep level is because you feel you are not or at the time were not able to love yourself more than you love that man. This love-loss is still creating blockages within your life, even now, thus at the time of your anger or resentment visualize yourself held within the most magnificent pink cloud of unconditional love, and I would like for you to call upon me Kuthumi who will come to love and embrace you with this unconditional love holding your hand so that you can clear this anger and bitterness from your chest, due to the fact that you never loved yourself more than you loved him which you inertly knew, and felt personally disappointed about, by entrusting him with more than you did to yourself, and with that let yourself down, or it seems so, disappointing your self for your inability at the time to love you more. Sister, at a deep seated level your anger is not directed at her although it seems that way, but rather at yourself for what you perceived at the time to be your weakness of not loving the self more, and then there is the anger towards this man whom at the time blind-folded you with his charm to such an extend that you could not embrace your own love, thus you rejected it. Are you with me?
A; Yes this makes so much sense (Lady in deep emotion)

MK: Think pink, see yourself in this unconditional love, now come give us a smile, no man wants to look at a lady with red eyes (some laughter from her and others) so you better go along and make yourself very pretty before you call me (laughter) call upon my energy field and I will support you through loving yourself.

A: Thank you, I have carried this all my life (she’s now in her mid-life age)

MK: Sister remember at a unconscious level the anger and the hatred is not really towards your sister but rather a spin-off of self blame and disappointment for your inability to love yourself more than you loved him, then there is the anger towards him, using your sister as a scapegoat for it seemed that she took away your power, but in reality it wasn’t even your power, as you gave yours to him. Think deeply of this, blessings be with you.

A: Thank you so much, I will.

Q: I have two or three

MK:  Oh bless you sister, you with your inner peace (screeches of laughter)

A: The first one has to do with my staff; we can’t get on the same wave length.

MK: Here there is a definite lack of communication to begin with, there is a break here and what is creating this is there are issues relating to courage in one form or another, think about it, and then there are issues relating to respectability.

A: how do I get through this, love?
MK: Yes by communicating at a gentle level, also use specifically the vibration of the colour orange to help with this for the frequency of Orange creates social links, thus communication ability or the feeling of being ‘in reach’, opening up pathways for you to meet halfway thus set up a bridge for communication. You aren’t able to get yourself across to them and they feel they are not able to get to you. Perhaps there is an envy of courage here.

A: Envy on my side

MK: No they see you as a very strong person, one with great courage which means strength. You encourage people, you carry great personal courage, this can be seen as power and extremely intimidating especially for this male energy.

A: Yes they are male.

Mk: So the males may see your courage as a great threat whereas the female energy would see this as a sisterhood of strength. Do you follow? Orange is the colour to use, be honest and open, and stand your man so to speak with love, treat all with love. There is no reason why anyone should treat another like an imbecile. Even when one sees another that hasn’t had a meal in days, that hasn’t bathed in weeks, from your point of view, they too carry the Grace of God within (even though they are not fully connected to it at present) they too support a silver cord just like yours, so what makes you different, the fact that you smell nice? It’s your rules as their reality is theirs, and the second?

Q: Sister shares with Kuthumi personal relationship that’s not doing well at the moment.

MK: Sister you are probably going to laugh at this, but you still need time out. You still need time alone to get to know yourself a little better, without control, you the world, the world you. Control comes up big here, and thus my suggestion for you is to spend a little more time with the self, have some fun, get to know you, get to love you some more. Blessings be with you.

A: Thank you, I thought this.

Q: My Father died when I was twelve

Mk: Well sister at present we are clearing away much male-dominant controlling energy that latches unto energy fields, so fathers are good throw him this way (screeches of laughter)

A: He was 50 when I was born, I was the youngest, he idolized me, I was his princess, and then he died when I was 12.

MK: You certainly feel abandonment; you resented him at the time for leaving you, he hardly made you feel comfortable wearing your tiara then took it away (laughter)

A: I didn’t realise just how I feel.

MK: It caused great bitterness within your life, especially with some of the men in your life

A: Yes and I realise now I never really processed it which holds me back.

Mk: correct sister these are the kind of issues which you need to work with, releasing it into the crystalline clearing bubble which allows this Higher self to support you with this as we have done during the last transmission, this energy that you describe you will release through the sacral for although the male energy is expressed through the base and the female through the sacral, it is the attachment to his spirit aspect that you need to let go of, to let him go. I suggest for you to take some time, invite your father into your space and communicate with him. Make a cup and tea, sit and chat with him in a relaxed manner, call upon your and his higher selves to aid you in this communication, and this will be even though he has already reincarnated for there are 12 direct links to his monadic self, which then subdivides into another 12 which gives way for the 144 aspects of the self all on various paths and levels of consciousness. His Monadic origin will always have a connecting link with you, which allows your eternal connection to him in some way.

A: so can I do this with my husband as well.

MK: sure, use the same principle, and communicate your disappointment in them taking their leave. Be open, honest and non judgmental. Once you have done this, and are done with licking your own wounds, then you will have to come to let go of your own victim hood not so.

A; Yes, is there a colour I can use and work with?

MK: Green, also use some green crystals for these are in some way connected to the heart energy with the most powerful general charger being Malachite. Malachite is wonderful to work with and often set in jewelry which makes it easy to have close. It is also suggested for you when you are in contact with their energy fields during your visualizations or tea-party’s to call upon your inner child aspect (which you will work with very closely during the month of May) then ask this inner aspect of you to hand to their higher self a gift of Malachite or Jade to be passed on to them, the heart energies

A; I have beautiful Jade (which she apparently purchased just before the meeting). Green heals the heart which is the envy, jealousy and malice that you need to heal.

Further personal words were shared between the lady and Kuthumi.

Q: I was adopted when I was nine months old….(personal information) unfortunately it has turned me into the type of person that has no patience with anyone that’s slow and weak..

Mk: Sergeant Major in other words (laughter)

A: Yes

MK: At least you have good rank sister (laughter) here you need to find your quiet heart space, it is suggested for you to work with moonstone, even Opalite, working with these energies you will become much more gentler especially during upheaval times, as it will awaken within you a gentle goddess. You see beloved sister during your young years major events took place which created a sea of conflict around you, subconsciously or unconsciously you resented every other happy family that you saw

A: I felt abandoned

Mk: So within this abandonment and resentment because you wouldn’t acknowledge another’s happiness you inertly thought your own worthiness to be inadequate therefore unable to render yourself as happy. This resentment was truly aimed at the self, which made you act very harsh, which in turn made you very angry with the men in your life at some level, all of them, not one was left unturned (laughter). Now at this beautiful time in your life, where you can release and work with these energies, do you not realize how fantastic it must make you feel?

A: Yes

MK: Being able to admit who you are, as you are, there is nothing wrong with it, not even your rank, simply don’t confuse them (laughter). It may prove to be very frustrating, why? There’s a yearning towards peace and happiness, joy and content which is a very unfamiliar place for you

A: Yes

Mk: therefore you have to encourage yourself to love yourself more than anything, to care for the self more than anything, and the more you love and care for yourself, the easier your will accept others to be the same. When last did you allow anyone to spoil you?

A: silence

MK: Want me to mention the year (laughter) so why don’t you change this, try it, and if there is no-one within you.